Baby Taco: 5 months, 3 weeks
Yesterday was my first Mother’s Day. Now from what I remember, you are supposed to relax, spend time with the family and kiss your baby even more, but I worked. I love my job, don’t get me wrong. My coworkers are some great people and I even had all good clients yesterday but I felt like crying. I missed my baby even more than normal.
My husband and I rarely argue but the one thing we do fight about is money. I didn’t want to work after Taco. At least for a couple of years. Daycare is so expensive and I honestly don’t trust stangers watching him. I wanted to be home. To play the housewife, (please don’t revoke my feminist card). But we also needed to be responsible so even if I am only working 3 days a week, the extra money helps.
I would not say we are poor by any means. We bought a house, both of our cars are paid off, we are able to eat out, Taco is clean and fully clothed and life is good. We can’t go on fancy trips or have the latest and greatest gadgets. Our new house needs a lot of work and it will take a lot of time but overall, we live the good life.
Unfortunately, we did not get there by my husband alone, we both had to work. So I am going to keep working. As much as I miss both of them. I know that one day, our house will be a home. We will have a nice yard that Taco can run around in. Even now as I look out to our brown grassed, growing weeds and any hills, I can see Taco laying on a green bed of grass. It will take time, it will take work. It will take money but it will be so worth it one day.
I am very lucky. My husband is an accountant so he is good with budgets. He sees numbers like they are life. He has taught me so much about saving and being careful. Where at the same time I have taught him the art of, “treat yo self”. They say that opposites attract and while sometimes I feel like we are the same person, some things we could not be more different. But it works because he teaches me that even though I’m away from Taco at work, it will all be worth it and Taco will have a better life for it.
…So back to yesterday. I worked. I then went to my friends a bit just to stop by but that turned into 3 hours and I found myself rushing home to see my boys. Of course, everyone was fine and relaxing. I love walking in now and seeing Taco’s face light up. Same with my husband. It feels good that those 2 love me as much as they do. Taco even got me a card and wrote a little note. Even at 5 months he has such good penmanship!!!
All the stress and all the sadness I was feeling at work just seemed to dissapear. I get to come home to 2 awesome men. Money may always be a stress in our lives but as long as we keep the love going things will be ok. Work may be hard but knowing that I will go home and kiss both of them make it all worth it.