Baby Taco: 3 months, 1 week
I remember life before Taco. I remember getting my hair done once a month, going into Sephora and getting fancy make up. Getting waxed to dolphin smooth perfection. Working 40 hours a week and being respected. I was strong and I was hot.
I thought this to myself as I sat on the obgyns table this morning. No make up. Hair color has grown out. Body hair out of control. I shifted uncomfortably in my paper gown. Still reeling over the fact that I still have 20lbs to go until I reach my pre Taco weight.
Things have not been feeling right down there since Taco was born. Sex was still pretty painful and I was experiencing frequent cramping. Also I bit the bullet and finally spoke about my PPD.
So what happened was that when Taco was born, he ripped my perineil, (taint). After you give birth you are supposed to take it easy, not stress and keep movement to a minimum. Well having a baby in the NICU is pretty much the opposite of all those things. The constant movement of running back and forth caused it to not heal properly.
The solution? To cut it open again and have it resewn. Woo!!! How special. It will feel better though I guess in the long run. I am just not looking forward to it.
We also spoke for a bit on PPD. Like all doctors he just gave me a prescription. I don’t like taking meds because addiction runs strong in the family but I am willing to give it to try. I want to be there for my husband and Taco.
I feel like once my lady part gets fixed and once the meds start kicking in, I can really start to focus on getting healthy. Post baby health takes awhile to get under control but I will get there!